Rain
This is for you transgender guys and girls out there: can you recall some fond "transgender moments"? And what's a "transgender moment"? When before becoming aware of your transgenderism or accepting it you felt a little tug inside seeing something on tv or reading a book.
I have plenty. One o the most heartwarming when I remember: I used to watch the anime "Hello Sandybell!" where this cute little girl with pigtails lived wonderful adventures and basically was awfully nice to everyone she met. My stepfather got real angry that I was watching girls' cartoons I must have been about 9 or 10 years old.
But more recent than that was the first time I saw Madonna's video for "Rain" (Erotica, 1992). I was about 14 and already struggling through adolescence. "You're a big boy now", I just couldn't get away without performing my male role more actively now. Slowly but surely my world was beginning to crack all around me and the future begun to narrow. The beginning of my Dark Ages, for sure.
Then I saw "Rain" at a friend's house and I was transfixed. I couldn't help bringing it up all the time that afternoon. Even today when I watch it I get the same feeling of wonder. There was Madonna, blue eyed, short haired and looking gorgeous.
She was what I wanted to grow up to be. That almost extraterrestrial lolicon goddess inhabiting a world of blue hues and a video shoot that went on forever.
I have plenty. One o the most heartwarming when I remember: I used to watch the anime "Hello Sandybell!" where this cute little girl with pigtails lived wonderful adventures and basically was awfully nice to everyone she met. My stepfather got real angry that I was watching girls' cartoons I must have been about 9 or 10 years old.
But more recent than that was the first time I saw Madonna's video for "Rain" (Erotica, 1992). I was about 14 and already struggling through adolescence. "You're a big boy now", I just couldn't get away without performing my male role more actively now. Slowly but surely my world was beginning to crack all around me and the future begun to narrow. The beginning of my Dark Ages, for sure.
Then I saw "Rain" at a friend's house and I was transfixed. I couldn't help bringing it up all the time that afternoon. Even today when I watch it I get the same feeling of wonder. There was Madonna, blue eyed, short haired and looking gorgeous.
She was what I wanted to grow up to be. That almost extraterrestrial lolicon goddess inhabiting a world of blue hues and a video shoot that went on forever.
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