Depression sets in
I've been reading the DubyaSpeak site so please don't-- if I don't make sense, which is what they say where I come from, she's a good person anyway, if they doesn't make sense, let them be, for they are the salt of the earth, see. The speech pattern of our fabulous president are incredible sticky.
My meds reserve has been dwindling these last days and will soon be out completely if Inhouse doesn't deliver today or tomorrow. I ran out of progesterone three days ago, I had already cut down the spiro dose and estrofem disappeared yesterday. This is the first time that this happens, they have always been very reliable, always delivering within seven days. Past times like these (never this bad) have been solely my fault, but I ordered ahead this time. Now I'm just running on hopes.
I feel the effects of the hormonal change already. My head is getting more foggy and I've been feeling steadily discouraged about myself. Not only that, I was feeling pretty motivated the days prior about everything and very happy; now the whole world can crumble down, I don't care (no food in any quantity tastes good these days, my weight holds at 155 mostly or swings between 153 and 156 depending on how much I eat). I'm also more clumsy, and since I am also a bit clumsy by nature I'm getting the distinct feeling of becoming more stupid. When the body speaks, all else is hollow...
It's official... I'll never ever tell anyone again when I'm going to get my shadow lasered off. My SO had an accident last week and the car was totaled (She's OK, she walked out with just some abrasions for which I'm very very relieved) so now we have to look for a new car and lots of other side expenses. I guess it could have been much worse, but I'm still bitter about the fact that twice already I've built up my hopes to get laser only to be crushed by some out-of-the-blue expense.
These last few days I also took the Myers-Briggs test at Bloginality.com several times and found I'm an INTP, the Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving. Reading the descriptions with my SO I had to agree it fits me right down to a T. Even when I have absolutely no ability or taste for math or physics, I always thought that I could have been a theoretical physicist if I didn't have to learn Physics :/
I'm going to my support meeting today... I hope I do okay. Being a m2f INTP is no joke, INTP is naturally the antithesis of gregarious feminine behaviour, devoid of self-confidence, small-talk abilities and appeal. Speaking of appeal, is it just me being depressive or I look way better in pictures where you can't see my eyes? I don't know, it's like their look is repealing.
There... I'm depressed again.
My meds reserve has been dwindling these last days and will soon be out completely if Inhouse doesn't deliver today or tomorrow. I ran out of progesterone three days ago, I had already cut down the spiro dose and estrofem disappeared yesterday. This is the first time that this happens, they have always been very reliable, always delivering within seven days. Past times like these (never this bad) have been solely my fault, but I ordered ahead this time. Now I'm just running on hopes.
I feel the effects of the hormonal change already. My head is getting more foggy and I've been feeling steadily discouraged about myself. Not only that, I was feeling pretty motivated the days prior about everything and very happy; now the whole world can crumble down, I don't care (no food in any quantity tastes good these days, my weight holds at 155 mostly or swings between 153 and 156 depending on how much I eat). I'm also more clumsy, and since I am also a bit clumsy by nature I'm getting the distinct feeling of becoming more stupid. When the body speaks, all else is hollow...
It's official... I'll never ever tell anyone again when I'm going to get my shadow lasered off. My SO had an accident last week and the car was totaled (She's OK, she walked out with just some abrasions for which I'm very very relieved) so now we have to look for a new car and lots of other side expenses. I guess it could have been much worse, but I'm still bitter about the fact that twice already I've built up my hopes to get laser only to be crushed by some out-of-the-blue expense.
These last few days I also took the Myers-Briggs test at Bloginality.com several times and found I'm an INTP, the Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving. Reading the descriptions with my SO I had to agree it fits me right down to a T. Even when I have absolutely no ability or taste for math or physics, I always thought that I could have been a theoretical physicist if I didn't have to learn Physics :/
I'm going to my support meeting today... I hope I do okay. Being a m2f INTP is no joke, INTP is naturally the antithesis of gregarious feminine behaviour, devoid of self-confidence, small-talk abilities and appeal. Speaking of appeal, is it just me being depressive or I look way better in pictures where you can't see my eyes? I don't know, it's like their look is repealing.
There... I'm depressed again.
posted by V. at 11:19 AM
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