ok, *other* things

I checked out a random post from before the crash and I see that my concerns are still the same. Is transition all I think about? Actually pretty much yes, but with good reason: thanks to my addressing this lifelong issue I am going back to my creative forces and to what makes me me (even if it's something I've redefined completely during the last year). Ok, this is complicated enough already. Examples:
I've been thinking about going back to learn languages (one of my true vocations). I'd love to take japanese but I believe I've got a natural ease for romance languages and thus would be better off starting there: italian, portuguese, french are my most likely first courses. It's damn costly though! :P
I'm also dying to become the woman jazz singer I always wanted to be... like Isabella Rosellini, "the blue lady" in Lynch's "Blue Velvet". If not a jazz singer, then a rock singer like Shirley Manson from Garbage! That would be SO cool.
I didn't want to mention transition issues in this post (at least directly he he :P) but my voice has imporoved lots from my early days. It still sounds a little fake, but if it is as my friend C. said that it's "very good, almost natural" (actually she gave me a big explanation, this is the cliff's notes), then I must be doing good. I got ma'amed on the phone and have been for a while now... it's just that I don't make *that* many phone calls! I'm SHY! Someone recommended in a web site to pick any number and call to ask nonsense like prices and opening/closing times... but I'm TOO SHY! Also, with two full languages and lesser bits from others running around my brain... it gets hard in full panic alarm! :P

Ahh... so fun to write again.