Hey there...

I've been trying to post stuff but I just delete it after writing it. It all seems so stupid.

I miss having a mom. I used to think a loooong time ago that my mom loved me, but years of her have firmly convinced me of the contrary. Same for my father and my stepfather. They care less about me now than they did before and that is something to say, I tell you.
I wish I had a mom who cared about me, who was interested in who I am and who wanted to stand by me. A mom who accepted me and liked me as I am.

Don't misinterpret this... I tried giving our relationship a chance after years of not communicating in any way and she just stopped writing when past chit-chat time and the how are you doing's. She wasn't interested in working out the kinks of our relationship. For her there was nothing wrong with it, only me.

A mom to share girl stuff with. That would be nice. Someone I could go buy clothes with, that I could sit down and chat with, that would give me motherly advice and be proud of me. Someone I could help with christmas dinners (strictly *help*, I suck at cooking :) ). My bio mom was the "recipient" of some cool family recipes from my great-grandmother and my grandfather. Would have been nice, even if I was going to screw it up with my cooking skills.

A mom to talk about guys I am (hypothetically) going out with, a mom I could hold and comfort in her low moments (even though parents generally comfort their children :P)

A mom proud to have a daughter like me.