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Oh anyway...
I started writing 'diaries' at around 12 years of age and even though I've struggled with the idea, I'll never be able to write a 'diary' per se. That is, a daily account of feelings and impressions. Instead, they are more like state of me flashes every month or so.
My thoughts for today...
Testosterone-induced sex has a way of perverting feelings to the core, warm female feelings we get during growing up. Men are sexual and always oversexed after puberty starts shooting stars into their heads, and since you're supposed to behave in this stupid way, your normal girl yearnings get twisted into sex fetishes we don't want to admit to. Because, if you like to feel a child's warmth and softness and want to hug them and protect them, at some point the testosterone will ask you if you wouldn't like something *else*. Or pregnant women. Or things related to women's world that you yearn for. Since testosterone behaves as an independent agent in its interaction with conscience and the body, one feels ashamed by this unknown voice that always seems to "know" you are really just a dirty guy at the bottom.
And this causes shame and distrust of oneself, so much that it either alienates one's budding sexuality into masturbation or forces recognition in the wrong way, as a fetish, adding to the misunderstanding.
Their emoticons were really cool and free :(
Oh anyway...
I started writing 'diaries' at around 12 years of age and even though I've struggled with the idea, I'll never be able to write a 'diary' per se. That is, a daily account of feelings and impressions. Instead, they are more like state of me flashes every month or so.
My thoughts for today...
Testosterone-induced sex has a way of perverting feelings to the core, warm female feelings we get during growing up. Men are sexual and always oversexed after puberty starts shooting stars into their heads, and since you're supposed to behave in this stupid way, your normal girl yearnings get twisted into sex fetishes we don't want to admit to. Because, if you like to feel a child's warmth and softness and want to hug them and protect them, at some point the testosterone will ask you if you wouldn't like something *else*. Or pregnant women. Or things related to women's world that you yearn for. Since testosterone behaves as an independent agent in its interaction with conscience and the body, one feels ashamed by this unknown voice that always seems to "know" you are really just a dirty guy at the bottom.
And this causes shame and distrust of oneself, so much that it either alienates one's budding sexuality into masturbation or forces recognition in the wrong way, as a fetish, adding to the misunderstanding.
posted by V. at 9:11 AM
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