tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7191966.post-1121822834101228182005-07-19T19:04:00.000-04:002005-07-22T08:40:14.260-04:00Here I am... struggling with myself for the resolve to go to the gym. I'm not fat, but I've gotten kind of pudgy this passing winter of hormone-induced reshaping.<br />And I can't. I can't go more than once every three weeks or so. Pretty bad, I know.<br /><br />Probably the fact that I pass about 95% or more of the time has made me comfy in my fat :) Or that I am considered attractive by a considerable group of people, men and women. Very cute men and women... btw.<br /><br />Ok wait... that was <span style="font-weight:bold;">HISTORIC</span>. Recap.<br /><br />Close to 100% passing? (with my work uniform I still pass pretty good, but it decreases my chances)<br />People who think I'm attractive and sexy and who don't see me as anything else than a a woman?<br /><br />Batman you shay?? :D<br /><br />And what about this one? About 3 weeks ago I went out with a guy <span style="font-style:italic;">for the first time in my life!</span> Is it me, is this Vivian... isn't all that the stuff of dreams? Despite the drier legal aspects <span style="font-style:italic;">I am a woman to the world!</span><br /><br />I started blogging here last year in June... only three months after starting hormones. I was 16 pounds lighter (ouch) but also didn't have a semblance of the feminine appearance I have now. Thanks hormones. Thanks job for letting me afford facial hair removal. <br /><br />man...! I fell asleep writing while laying here on my bed! I'm gone to see Mr and Mrs. Smith with my roommate! :)V.http://www.blogger.com/profile/06812296579111880006noreply@blogger.com